Joy and Pain

May 3, 2013

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This is a mixture
They seem to go together
A choice can be made
Joy and pain are “twin sisters”*
A surprised discovery
 
I began this life with joy
The pain was hidden from me
Then surprised me with vengeance
And joy sustained me
 
A well-spring of energy
Like living water it came
It found me in the despair
Offering me hope
 
The memory compelled me
I am larger than my pain
I discovered this secret 
Made in God’s image
 
This huge discovery came 
A love affair ignited
One that cannot be explained
Pursued by God’s love
 
There is great wisdom
Pay attention to questions
Reflect on your life
Give yourself to the seeking
God is searching to find you
 
He is running to meet you
With the deepest compassion
You find it in the story
Of God’s unique Son
 
 

“I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in our hearts through faith.  And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ.”  Ephesians 3:16-17

 

“You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.”  Psalm 16:11

 

*I got the phrase “Twin Sisters” from a poem my wife Charlotte wrote years ago. 

 

For my nephew Kirk, on his birthday

Soaking

January 8, 2013

I’ll soak in your thoughts

Remember the things you say

Write them on my heart

Please light the flame in my soul

Let it burn for you today

 

I will enter your throne room

In quiet and wait for you

I am so slow to hear you

You words are simple

 

I’ll act on your words

Reflect, only you are God

I’ll light the candle of hope

Receive your mercy

Accept your peace in the storm

Receive your gentle presence

 

Gratitude fills me

I choose to believe the truth

He’s stored life for me

In the sight of all mankind

My cup overflows with love

 

“The words I speak are Spirit”

His words are light to my soul

I believe them like a son

Holding Father’s hand

Going out not knowing

Trusting He will lead the way

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My Utmost for His Higest – January 3

Jesus Calling by Sarah Young – January 3

Psalm 31:19-20; John 6:33, 16:33; Psalm 97:2,3,20,11

 “When a man gets to God, it is by most simple ways—words.”  Oswald Chambers

 

I Light Up My House

December 29, 2012

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This morning I lit a candle. I dropped to my knees.  I said The Lord’s Prayer  slowly and thoughtfully, meditating on the words: “Father,” “kingdom,” “your will,” “on earth as it is in heaven,” “forgiveness” and “temptation.”  Then I moved into a focused reading of Psalms 16, contemplating David’s interaction with God.  As I did these things, a metaphor came to me.

 

My body is the tabernacle of God.  Mentally, I go throughout the tabernacle lighting the candles in each room.  The light of love from the Father illuminates the main room.  As I move from room to room, I light the candle that brightens its darkness.  I light the candles of peace in each room.  Forgiveness is the brightest light that brings the gentle presence of God with his awareness of my story.  The candle of joy is lit and affirms the power of His indwelling presence that will never leave or forsake me.  The rooms are filled with comfort as the light illuminates the deep grief and loss I have no words for ….  Then there is the candle of hope, the certainty of a God who will always keep all of His promises.

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My temptation is to let all the noise of my heart, coming from the dark rooms, draw me into action, before I let the light in that guides me in this treacherous wonder-filled journey.  I then awaken to the joy of the house I live in and continually listen to the counsel I receive.

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“God is light and in him is no darkness at all.”

 I John 1:5

*Tabernacle=dwelling place

God the Initiator

December 16, 2012

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I have heard his voice
The voice of the Beloved
My God and my friend

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He speaks in the night
And comes to me by day
My part is to seek
To surrender all my heart
My mind and my soul today

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He has already spoken
Through the life of his dear son
If you need more he will give
He knows what you need

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I trust the one who loves me
Who kept silent at his death
And raised him from death to show
Everlasting love

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I know my first love
There is no one to compare
Fifty one years I’ve followed
Stumbling in his arms
Only to discover this
God’s the initiator

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God initiated his love by sending his only son. He need not speak again, but he does. He will come to you when you need him, in the way you need him. His voice speaks loudest in the sending of his only son into the world. I pray the world is listening. I pray I am listening. I pray the advent of his coming into the world means he comes into my heart like a fresh spring today.

The Invisible Factor

December 7, 2012

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Looking back I see
The invisible factor
In solitude I found it
A love without end
The people I hold sacred
Are the treasures of my life

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Two things are invisible
Hidden wanting to be found
There are evil intentions
Then there are the good

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What takes place in me
My emotions and feelings
My invisible thinking
Will direct my life

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You will not see it
You’ll know it by my actions
There are no secrets

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So I’ll guard my heart
I’ll decide where I focus
The gift that I have
Is I get to make the choice
I choose invisible joy

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I am free to go
Follow the internal lead
Choose who I will trust
Looking back I am aware
Of a love who seeks me out

 

     Reflections written after meditating on the words of Jesus in Matthew 10:29-31; and Paul in 2 Corinthians 4:18; Colossians 2:2-3. and in Hebrews 11:27. The invisible factor will always rule the choices. No exceptions!

     I celebrate this morning I get to choose who it is that will be the most influential thinker in my life today. The book “Jesus Calling” is a good place to start. I have learned that I am powerless under my feelings. They will dictate the choices unless I recognized and understand where those feelings are taking me. The invisible lies must be exposed. Also, it helps to know where they come from. If you will train to think through your choices, to look down stream at where those choices are taking you, to seek help from those you see are living in joy, and to call on the One who brings this mysterious love, you will find your way to joy.

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Miracle Presence

November 14, 2012

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I will listen to one voice
The one that can be trusted
He has been tested and tried
He heals all my wounds

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This daily practice
Of choosing not to worry
Just because he said
“Don’t worry about your life”
“What does worry add to you?”

I have found a key
For healing and freeing men
Helping people move forward
Through obstacles
Understanding your own story
The richness of your own life

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If you look within
The wounded places stand out
You survived the pain
Do you know the reason why
And where to find the healing

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He knows your story
Understands right where you are
And offers healing
Who is this one who is present
Who makes a promise of life

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Know his story well
Listen only to his voice
What he says is relevant
Connected and true
I know how much he loves me

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I’ll be strong and courageous
I will not give in to lies
I’ll be kind and merciful
And love without end

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Because Jesus loves
I’ll love you with the same love
Forgiveness at the center
Miracle Presence
I believe with all my heart
His resurrection power

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Energy given
When I decide to believe
And act in obedience
Against my feelings
Then his healing touch will come
I drink the living water

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“Faith needs to meet people where they live otherwise it is irrelevant.”  Glenn Hinson

 

For fifty-one years, I have asked the real hard questions about human relationships.  No one has made more sense to me about life than Jesus of Nazareth.  His teachings and the way he treated a person were contrary to the religion of his day.  They killed him for it.  They are contrary to the religion of my day.  What mattered to him was the person.  It will take your best mind to look carefully at your own story, and his story to make the connection.  The distractions of your own pain, and the distractions of others vying for your time and energy are formidable obstacles.  When Jesus said, “I came to give life and give it abundantly” I said he is either a liar, crazy or telling the truth.  I was in such a desperate state I was compelled to search out the facts of his story.  I wanted to know how he put his pants on, who he ran around with, what was important to him, because he gave a promise that was outlandish, but one I so desperately wanted to be true. 

 

Reflections this morning are from Jesus Calling , by Sarah Young as well as Luke 12:22-26, II Corinthians 10:5, Deuteronomy 31:6, John 4.

 

Who Are the Heroes?

November 12, 2012

On the front page of Newsweek dated, November 12, 2012, the headline is entitled, “The Heroes Issue”.  General Petraeus is recognized for his 12 Rules of  Leadership.  His fifth rule is: “We all make mistakes.  The key is to recognize them and admit them, to learn from them, and to take off the rear-view mirror-drive and avoid making them again.” 

“Life breaks everyone”

A line that is familiar

But some become strong

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The human heart will judge you

Whether you are religious

Or just believe in yourself

On the twists and turns of life 

You’re wise to seek good counsel

 

The ones who can admit

Tell the truth about themselves

Come out from hiding

Hold themselves accountable

Then arise from the ashes

 

The General Petraeus 

A leader in the country

Told the truth about himself

Then resigned his job

 

Many condemn him

His own heart judges him most

How he handles this 

Will be the test of his life

King David can be of help

 

Power does corrupt

Pride makes one vulnerable

Easily deceived

Lust will dismantle the soul

Greed poisons the human heart

 

A leader has fallen hard

His great opportunity

Is to model now a way

To be forgiven

 

One way to escape

The deep judgment of your heart

Meet one that’s greater

Who knows your story so well

Who loves you like his own son 

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General Petraeus, your story is not over.  God meets you with the same compassion he met David the King, the “woman at the well”, “the Centurion”, “the thief on the cross” and me.  I pray mercy reigns for you, your wife and your children.  Let the world see now, how a leader rises by the grace of God.

Ernest Hemingway stated: ”The world breaks everyone, and afterward, many are strong at the broken places.”

“He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up to us all–how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?”Romans 8:32, Psalm 51

With Great Joy I Move

October 13, 2012

With great joy I move
Not because where I go
But who is with me
 
On level ground I will stand
To the mountains I will go
To the valley I am sent
But never alone
 
I’ll not live in fear
Though evil is all around
I am confident
 
One thing I will seek
With my eyes fixed on beauty
A relationship of love
When the trouble comes
He keeps me safe with his peace
 
A song in my heart
I have seen the face of God
In the servant lives
Of those who have surrendered
Moses, David, and Peter
 
My confidence is in this
Each of these lives were broken
The light came through their failure
A love beyond words
 
God has been faithful
For generations it’s love
And, also, today
Looking back I can see it
Looking forward I claim it
 
 
Based on reflections from my own life, 
Psalms 26-30; Proverbs 6; and
Jesus Calling by Sarah Young
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Desire of Your Heart

October 9, 2012

 
A way is revealed
With gentleness and kindness
Love will come in a whisper
When you long to know
You seek God’s wisdom above all
Make knowledge of truth your aim
 
There is one constant
A surprise to discover
It’s unfailing love
 
In seeking the truth
Being disciplined to think
I found in desperation
A hunger for life
Simple answers do not work
Honest questions saved me
 
It is too good to be true
Wisdom and understanding
Is available to all
Who delight in God
 
Yes, it is the truth
One must practice believing Him
Take Him at His word
 
What’s the desire of your heart
There are promises for you
If you delight in the Lord
Light comes to your soul

Proverbs 8; Psalms 36-40; Jesus Calling by Sarah Young

 

What I Believe

October 5, 2012

I will see His face
He is observing my life
It’s a look of love
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I choose what I will look at
I know what the face of love is
I accept the peace He gives
My faith is in Him
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I am not righteous
I grew up in darkness
A light came cloaked in kindness
Gentleness and love
I looked in the face of God
In the face of mother love
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My mother could not give
My father emotionally-handicapped
The God of all love
Sent grandmothers and neighbors
And His angels to attend
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Unfailing love -what I know for sure
I love to tell His story
Light comes in darkness
The fire of joy can be lit
The human soul is restored
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I trust in unfailing love
I rejoice in His friendship
This friend gave His life for me
There’s no one like Him
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I choose what I seek
And who I will listen to
The loud voice of fear
Hidden behind guilt and shame
Must be brought into the light
I will speak the truth
I’ll watch when the door opens
Be ready to give
Make the mysterious love
Plain to those who are seeking
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You have blessed my home
With patience and loving care
Crowned with forgiveness
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Psalms 11-15; Proverbs 3;
Jesus Calling by Sarah Young

Wisdom Available

October 4, 2012

To find the treasure

Ear – listen for wisdom

Eye – search with great intent

Heart – apply the understanding

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Then you’ll understand

What it means to revere God

Gain knowledge of God

You’ll discover the wisdom

Embrace the insights

 

You’re my shield, O God

Your righteousness -  my protector

I walk in your peace

Your promises restore me

Your Divine Power saves me

Psalm 7:10     

 

I will trust in you

With all my heart I seek you

It’s you I believe

You have never forsaken

Those who seek with all their heart

Psalm 9: 9,10

 

Is there room for God

Pride can fill up the heart

Lust will poison it

Greed causes one to act out

These three things bring great destruction

 

God helps the fatherless ones

Breaks the arm of the wicked

The Lord is King forever

You rule with mercy

 

Proverbs 2; Psalms 6-10;

Jesus Calling by Sarah Young

Command Joy

October 2, 2012

There is a way to command joy

A truth I learned through the years

It will take your best thinking 

Learned through suffering

 

Thoughtful reflections

When there seems to be no hope

The cry of desperation

Of a child who’s all alone

Is heard in the darkest hour

 

There is energy

Available to those who ask

It is joy for life

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Over thirty years ago, Landon Saunders spoke to me about the fact that “you can command joy.”  It is true.  We visited again this past weekend, and he spoke that it is not something you will get to “someday”, but it is an “energy” you can access in the now.  Think with me about it this month.

During the month of October, I invite you to read and reflect with me through Psalms and Proverbs.  Over the years, Psalms has been my mother and Proverbs has been my father.  They gave me language for my pain, hope for my future and joy for my present.  I read through them every month, and find something new every time.

Living with the Unseen

September 20, 2012

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The unseen darkness will lie
The unseen light will give life
I choose what I will look at
I’ll listen to Him
 
His words bring me life
I meditate and draw near
My gift is that I can choose
God’s Spirit follows
When I practice believing
His words above all others
 
I see the unseen
Looking back I’ve come to see
All things pass away
My memories I can see
They are the things that are real
 
When I trust in God
I cannot be defeated
Death itself cannot destroy
All the fear is gone
I live with a living hope
An inexpressible joy
 
Some memories give me life
Some memories bring me death
Years of trusting God each day
Brings healing and hope
 
This is a practice 
Focusing on what is true
Jesus comes to teach
Personal and intimate friend
He’s always glad to see me
 
I bow in reverence
I look at me through His eyes
I accept His love
 
Proverbs 20:24, II Corinthians 4:17, 18,
Jesus Calling by Sarah Young
 

Divine Perspective

September 19, 2012

Living close to you

Is the Divine perspective

When I awake your my joy

I’ve learned the story

I have listened carefully

Above all the noise and lies

 

Joy calls me to you

I will obey your commands

They are my delight

 

Seeing you is life

The tragedies and the storms

The injustice and the lies

That are all around

The death that is untimely

Could destroy us but they don’t

 

I’m knocked down but not destroyed

Broken but I found healing

A sinner but forgiven

Desperate with hope

 

Who will have the final word

In quiet I’m listening

My feelings will lie to me

When stressed I am blind

 

One voice calms my soul

In stillness I will focus

He comes to me in nature 

And a life of love

 

Who will I believe

Who speaks to what’s happening

The internal war

My soul will ask the questions

Who can speak to these issues

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You will find the peace

This world will not give to you

What only God can

 

“Do not be afraid”

He said to them in their grief

“My peace I give to you.”

 

Rest is the true word

It’s available to all

Quietness and trust

Is the most difficult work

It’s the battle worth fighting

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These are not just words.  They reveal a path marked for generations to honest searching people.  It is the gentle and strong call to come to life and freedom.  He invites us to come and seek.  You will find!

John 14:27, Isaiah 30:15, 2 Corinthians 10:4, and ”Jesus Calling” 9-12-12

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Another World

September 12, 2012

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You came from another world
Giving a view of your heart
A heart of love for the weak
Grace for the wounded
 
In one man I found
Immersed in humanity
Broken and alone
 
Driven by a higher love
A love invisible but real
With powerful love he came
From another world
 
No eye has seen, nor ear heard
No mind can conceive of this
An intimate God presence
A love without end
 
Holy Spirit come
Come and heal the wounded hearts
Those grieving massive losses
Bring hope and comfort
 
Your promise brings life
The other world becomes real
When I trust you
 
No one can fathom
The depth of love that you have
Open my eyes, Lord
 
We have a mission
A calling to walk in faith
Proclaiming this love
 
Our Father gave his own son
Watched him die, kept silent
Raised him from the depths of hell
Pursued us with love
 
Reflections after meditating on Isaiah 54:10, Genesis 28:15, Matthew 28:20, John 17 and on Jesus Calling, by Sarah Young.
 
My daughter Sara gave me the inspiration for today’s post as she pointed out how many times Jesus spoke of the “world.”
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