Unexplainable Gift

April 18, 2012

I have learned to hide
In the shadow of your wings
You’ve lifted my heart to joy
I cannot explain
I’m an ordinary man
A broken human being

When I look back my heart’s sick
I see my failure and pride
Lust for affirmations
Longing for power
I repent again today
I am new every morning

Each morning I rise
Praise God for his massive love
One who lives by his Spirit
In those who repent
Those who accept forgiveness
Who accept undying love

A gift I cannot explain
It defies logic of men
But I know one thing
I was shattered in pieces
And now I am whole again

I will seek the truth
That is a choice I can make
It is the one thing
That I have done and will do
It has brought light to my eyes

I’ve lived close to death
I have watched my love ones die
I’m angry at death
I hate it with all my heart
Only truth has brought me hope

Men’s religion has failed
A cloud, a veil hides the truth
You must look deeper
Search for yourself the answers
You will find if you will seek

Reflections written after meditating on Psalm 31; Proverbs 7; Jesus Calling; My Utmost for His Highest – 4-7-12.

When I rise in the morning, I can now visualize the places I have read about for over 50 years.  I am in Jerusalem.  I have been to the Sea of Galilee.  I have stood on Mount Carmel.  I have been to the synagogue Jesus taught in Capernaum.  I have stood on the mountain where he explained who the really happy people are (Sermon on the Mount).  I have looked up at the stars over the Sea of Galilee where he knelt before dawn broke.  I have seen these places and marveled.  What is happening inside me is a feeling of having brought the one in me (Jesus) to a most familiar place.  It has made my heart glad. 

As I have been seeking the truth about life, I have found nothing to compare with the teachings and life of the man from Nazareth.  His friendship defies human logic.  His life and resurrection have been made real as I have sought what is true.   I wanted to know who speaks to the real human struggle around the universal issues of life (death, despair, guilt and fear).  I have been led to the One relationship that brings me hope, peace, forgiveness and joy.  A daily practice continues to surprise me with new things. 
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It is Resurrection morning, we just walked back from one of the gardens outside of Jerusalem where some say Jesus rose from the dead.  There was a sunrise service with about 1500 people from every nation.  We arrived early, so we had time to read and remember.
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Dawn Breaks with Life
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The dawn is breaking
In the garden where he rose
Many gather to worship
Taking their pictures
Did you know it would be like this
Each one coming to worship
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After reading all the accounts of the Resurrection
I wrote:
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At the beginning
There were only a few there
The women were first
But the men did not believe them
The women say – ran to tell
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They ran to the tomb
To see for themselves what was true
There the empty tomb
Angels spoke resurrection
He’s not here, He’s risen
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We worship God who’s alive
Each person invited to come
One with the Father of all
His son died and rose
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Let me join you, Lord
In giving life to this planet
Help me point them to your love
God becoming man
In the person of Jesus
A joy much larger than death
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It was impossible for death to hold Jesus.  It is impossible to death to hold us.  Jesus lives in you.  We are invited to a life of joy because of the living Christ in us.  Do not be afraid or anxious.  God is with you.  Peter said in Acts 2:24 “… it was impossible for death to keep its hold on him.”  That same promise belongs so us. 
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You are everything to God.  Be still and invite Him to come and hold you.  He always comes and sends his angels to join Him.  Psalm 91
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Surprised by Joy

March 29, 2012

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Take time to listen
There are words that bring you light
Jesus is calling
 
There is a fresh drink
Each morning that I arise
Go to the wellspring of joy
A relationship
Peace passing understanding
Hidden for you to find
 
Create space each day
On your knees and in the word
Go there and engage your mind
Be still and listen
You will be surprised by joy
 
In honor of Ty Osman II, who was full of joy. 
Ty joyfully served orphans.  You can continue his work.  Click here to learn more.
 

A Love Without End

February 18, 2012

A love without end
A deep abiding friendship
With the one who gives life
A daily rhythm given
To the dance of joy
 
Just because you don’t feel it
Doesn’t make it not true
Don’t let unfamiliarity rob you
Of knowing Jesus’ story
 
God hates hypocritical religion
With all its self-righteousness
Bringing judgement on others
 
Jesus came to love
He said, “I came to give life
And give it abundantly.”
I decided to test it
Fifty years ago
 
Love in action speaks
Much louder than empty words
I focus on his actions
Love demonstrated
 
Taking time for quiet stillness
Today as I contemplate
A deep rhythm of the soul
Helps me live in peace
 
One moment in time
He gave it all to set us free
A love without end
 
Terry S. Smith
February 14, 2012
 

We are not alone

January 20, 2012

You can watch Jesus’ movements in the recording of His behavior in the fourth and fifth chapters of Mark.  This poem is written from the perspective of Jairus a synagogue ruler. 

We felt all alone

Our daughter was dying

Helpless and despairing

I went looking for Christ

Believing Jesus could heal

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I felt hope when Jesus said

“I will go with you and help.”

The crowds pressed as we traveled

Suddenly he stopped


He looked all around

We were running out of time

He healed a woman

The words came like a dagger

“Your daughter is dead.”


He turned and looked straight at me

“Don’t be afraid, just believe.”

When we reached our home, I saw

Weeping and wailing


Jesus said, “She is sleeping.

She is not dead.”  They all laughed

He made everyone leave

Except us, the parents


Three of his disciples stayed

Peter, James, and John watched him

Jesus touched her and spoke this

“Little girl, get up!”


She opened her eyes

Arose and began to walk

Marvelous astonishment

“Don’t tell anyone.”

He told us to give her food

Because he knew she was hungry


Who is this that calms the storms

Who cast out wicked demons

Who heals all the diseases

And raises the dead

The twelve year old girl was raised from the dead.  You will be raised from death.  I will be raised from death. Jesus spoke to life and death.  Your love ones will be raised.  No one else I know speaks to real life issues like Jesus. 

He rules nature

He rules the demons

He heals all our diseases

He rules over death

You are not alone.  God sees you.  He hears you.  He listens to your cry.  Nothing is greater than God demonstrating his love by giving his only Son to live in you.  You are his joy.  My job is to hear him; receive his love; meditate on His teaching and act on the things he teaches me.  In doing this I have discovered inexpressible joy.

© Terry S. Smith
January 2, 2012
 

Just as He hears You

January 14, 2012

A woman who had spent all of her money on doctors, after being ill for twelve years, touches Jesus cloak.  A miracle happened as she cried out and reach out to Jesus.  The same happens today.  He hears us and always responds. God hears the human cries.  Click here to read the story.

A large crowd came to see him

He stood there on the sea shore

Jairus fell at his feet

“My daughter is dying”


“Will you come and heal?

She is only twelve years old”

He begged Jesus to come

“If you will put your hands on her

I know she will not die”


He left with the crowd

Traveling toward Jairus’ House

In the crowd was a woman

An outcast by law


Bleeding for twelve years

Unclean by purity laws

She suffered greatly

All of her money was gone

She touched the hem of his cloak


She touched his cloak and was healed

She could feel that she was clean

Whole from touching his garment

He could feel her touch


Jesus felt the power leave

His response was, “Who touched me?”

Everyone was silent

All were touching him


Then the silence was broken

This woman came forth and spoke

His gaze fell on the woman

She dropped to her knees


Shaking, fearful and amazed

“I am the one who touched you”

He listened to her story

He heard why she came


“Because you believe, you’re healed”

Go in peace now and stay well

He heard the cry of her heart

Just as he hears yours 

 
© Terry S. Smith
January 1, 2012
Dedicated to my Sara
 
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A fresh spring of joy
Rivers of living water
Come pouring down on our lives
His living presence
Coming in the little things
Making us aware of love

I rise seeking God
Out my window it is dark
The breaking of dawn
Calls me to remember this
God is waiting to be praised

I will wait on God
I seek Him with all my heart
I ask His gracious Spirit
Make your words my joy
With my mind engaged I come
Help me be ready to act

The following comes from the reading of Luke 24:13-25 and Henri Nouwen’s reflections on Jesus meeting the two on the road to Emmaus.  Henri Nouwen structures the five movements in this conversation: loss, presence, invitation, communion and mission.  He identifies these as the five main aspects of the Eucharist celebration.

This is a movement 
“Resentment to gratitude”
“Hardened heart to grateful heart”
Invited to come
Experience and affirm
His living presence with us

I will celebrate 
This movement in my body
The temple of God
The miracle of God’s choice
To live and dwell in my soul

Jesus is walking by you
Just as he did on the road
They did not recognize Him
Open our eyes, Lord

Their eyes were downcast
He asked “What are you thinking?”
They spoke the truth they could see
Despair ruled their hearts
Their dream was shattered
When Jesus spoke their hearts burned
But still they could not see Him

They listened to history
He explained from the prophets
This story that they were in
And about Himself
He prayed and he broke the bread
God comes to us in prayer

I know I’m like them
Circumstances will dictate
Unless I learn this lesson
When I pray He comes
My eyes are opened with faith
I choose who I will believe

I come this morning
The dawn is breaking today
You know my story
And thankfully I know yours
Let the light of life shine through

I will go forth with a message
A friendship available
Given to all who believe
Help me make you known

I pray you all are aware today that God is near you, and that you receive the gift of His presence, just as the two on the road to Emmaus had their eyes opened.  When you pray, God will open your eyes.  You will remember how your hearts burned when He walked beside you, when you were unaware of the reality of His kind presence.

Merry Christmas, blessings and peace.
With love,
Terry and Charlotte
December 24, 2011
Dedicated to the Servants of Christ, Memphis, Tennessee
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For “A Christmas Eve Story” from my past
 click here
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Receive Divine Love

December 13, 2011

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Suffering does have a purpose
Though it hurts beyond words
When you are falsely accused
And you choose to love

Forgiveness – a choice I make
A painful process I know
Son of Man and Son of God
One who shows me how

He endured the pain
All the rejection and shame
Physical, emotional
The loss of all family
Left alone to die for me

The question of faith
Each must give their own answer
I know the story
I’m reminded this season
When I sing “O Holy Night”

I fall on my knees
His story touches my soul
Takes me to the heart of God
Embraces the pain
Gives me the power to love
And forgive those who wronged me

You hear the invitation
To come and rest in His peace
To drink the living water
Receive Divine Love

I seek the silence
When I am quiet I hear
The quiet whisper
Of a love larger than me
Embracing my soul with joy

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© Terry S. Smith
December 9, 2011
 
Inspired by the song “O Holy Night”, sung by David Phelps, (sent to me by Jerry Dantone, a high school friend), and reflections from the first letter Peter wrote in the New Testament. 
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Little baby born in love

December 11, 2011

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What will change our eyes to see
The magnitude of His grace
Little baby born in love
Became one of us
 
I want my children
And all of my grandchildren
To know this amazing love
Please send your angels
Attend to each one
May they experience You
And awaken to Your Joy
 
Another baby is coming
Olivia Margaret
And Preston was born on this day
Just eight years ago
 
Who will teach their eyes to see
The magnitude of His grace
Little babies born in love
Learn to live from us
 
© Terry S. Smith
December 11, 2011
 
This poem is dedicated to my grandchildren.  “The man who fears God, his children’s children will be blessed.”  This promise is yours:  Sydney, Wallace, Aubrey-Anne, Preston, Sterling, Maia, Peter, Isaac, Averil, and Olivia, who will arrive any day now!
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Each Breath a Gift

August 20, 2011

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Faithful in the little things
Integrity is a must
Humility and wisdom
In response to love
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I have no power
I cannot secure my life
I came from the dust
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Each breath I take is a gift
The love I receive treasured
My heart beats with joy untold
An unfailing love
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There is no trouble
No death or desperation
Christ has not dealt with
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Knowledge is the key
Faith opens the lock to joy
Practice His Presence
Perseverance will secure
Obedience to the love
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He will rescue you
From fear and anxiety
This is a promise He gave
A clear decision
That I get to make each day
I come hungry to know Him
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God delights in you
It’s beyond understanding
I know that it’s true
I have learned through practicing
Being a seeker of truth
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I’ve tasted the fruit
Of seeking a righteous life
Although I have failed many times
Each time I have learned
The friendship only deepens
Forgiveness is the miracle
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Compassion and gentleness
I discovered in silence
Focus on this teacher’s heart
Captured by His mind
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Terry S. Smith
August 11, 2011
Meditation on Proverbs 11; Psalm 25; 17.
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Awakening to Love

July 4, 2011

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My soul in the dust
Your words can revive me
Teach me your ways
Create in me a hunger
To know you and follow you
 
Let me grasp your real presence
Meditate on your wonder
My grief is overwhelming
I sit in despair
 
No one seems to care
An obstacle many face
Where are my friends
Is there anyone to see
The brokenness of my soul
 
I have found there’s only one
Who sees me and knows me well
A mysterious treasure
Let your love break through
 
Your law has become my joy
It reveals deliverance
It is sweet like the honey
On the honeycomb
 
Jesus fulfilled the law
Entered the depth of my pain
Made it possible to see
The heart of my God
 
He sends the Holy Spirit
To comfort in my weakness
Give power when I’m afraid
Renew the Father’s love
 
Hold me when I cannot move
Speak for me when I cannot speak
Secure me in my deepest place
Just be still, let go
 
A decision I can make
When I sit in unbelief
I can choose to believe him
One who chose to love
 
Remember the times
Meditate on his story
Consider his love
It is personal to you
Just come to him as you are
 
I’ll run to your commands
For they have set my heart free
“I bind myself to do your will”
I will choose your love
 
© Terry S. Smith
June 28, 2011
The line in quotations is from The Abbey Psalter of Psalm 119:25-32.
Written after meditating on Psalm 119.
 

Hope

April 23, 2011

To read the true story this poem is based on click here.

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Mary and Martha

Their hope did not come

When they wanted Him to come

They were grieving and broken

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Jesus disappointed them

He did not come when they called

He did come with a surprise

With power and love

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He came to them right on time

To teach them new things of God

They knew He was their good friend

They knew He was God

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“Your brother will rise to life”

His presence revealed this truth

He wept when He saw Mary

He knew her name well

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Yes, He knows your name

He also weeps for you now

He knows your story and your grief

He is here for you

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He asked for Mary

She heard Martha whispering

“The teacher is calling you”

To come and see Him

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He is calling you

Do you hear His whispering

His voice can be heard

Use both heart and mind

And focus on His story

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Dedicated to our special family friend Michelle.

First posted on my daughter Sara’s blog “A Spacious Place”.   


The heart of God

November 8, 2010

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I see the heart of God
His passion overwhelms me
His despair was a choice he made
His heart turned to wax
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It melted away in him
He felt no one heard his cry
He was poured out like water
He was all alone
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He had no strength left
He lay in the dust of death
He was thirsty and broken
He cried out for help
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People stared at him
Dogs surrounded his body
The lions came to devour
He was overwhelmed
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I will not forsake my God
He did not despise my shame
He has seen my suffering
Not hidden his face
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He heard me crying out for help
I’ll honor him with my life
The poor will eat and find rest
And be satisfied
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I’ll kneel before him
One who chose to be like me
Proclaim him to those unborn
To my grandchildren
And their children I will speak
Our God, forever is love
 
© Terry S. Smith
November 5, 2010
Written while sitting by the fire, early in the morning, choosing to meditate on Psalms 20-25.
 

Fountain of Life

October 24, 2010

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The fountain of life
Is for those who choose to hear
The One who gives life
Accept his unfailing love
Drink deeply from his presence
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Extravagant love
Demonstrated and given
Yours to accept
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Remember the story
Practice what he modeled here
Daily he drew near to God
And loved the wounded
Those who came to him seeking
Receiving his gentle touch
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It is in giving
That you receive his blessing
Trusting that he has given
All his love to you
You must practice perceiving
Hearing his voice in silence
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Renewed in mind
Accept that you are chosen
Beloved and holy
Then be clothed with compassion
Kindness and humility
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Forgive offenses
As you have been forgiven
And above all love
It holds all things together
Let God’s peace rule your heart now
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© Terry S. Smith
October 14, 2010
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Written after meditating on Colossians 3, John 15, and Proverbs 14.  I am also reading Battlefield of the Mind, by Joyce Meyer. 
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Extravagant love

August 31, 2010

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My voice is silenced

With this massive loss of Liz

I have no language

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I need words of hope

I’m searching for the voices

That will speak the truth

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Liz LaVelle’s life speaks!

She is God’s voice to us today

Her life rings out with passion!

Spontaneous joy!

Our hearts are grieved beyond words

Comfort those nearest and dear

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One voice comes with Power

One voice speaks to death’s darkness

One voice with authority

“You will never die!”

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Today we don’t grieve for Liz,

We grieve for us, our great loss

She lives, we’ll see her again

How do we go on now?

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We draw near to You

You have sought us and found us

Broken and seeking

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There is one who comes

I cannot explain this love

It’s bigger than death

The words of Jesus bring life

Breathe hope into my spirit

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To Liz’s precious family:

You will see Liz face to face

Jesus keeps His promises

Let him comfort you

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To Liz’s friends:

Let Liz’s life be remembered

Let her voice be heard by all

God is real…and He loves you!

His love is extreme

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Christ lives in the human heart

Little children saw God’s face

As Liz loved, touched, and cherished

She saw the children

God’s gentleness calls

All of us to stop and think,

What really matters?

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Liz knew what mattered

Her cup was full of His joy

Her life invites us

To arise and say, “thank you”

Love God, and one another

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Liz’s word to all of us:

Do not weep for me

I cannot come to you now,

You can come to me

Let God’s Spirit comfort you

Draw near each day to His heart

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Extravagant love

He always keeps His promise

Please accept this treasured gift

Then give it away

Joy comes in obeying Him

Love each other as God loves

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Please see the children

The ones who’ve been abandoned

God is here to comfort you

Raise you up in love

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Terry S. Smith

August 31, 2010

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