I Light Up My House
December 29, 2012
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This morning I lit a candle. I dropped to my knees. I said The Lord’s Prayer slowly and thoughtfully, meditating on the words: “Father,” “kingdom,” “your will,” “on earth as it is in heaven,” “forgiveness” and “temptation.” Then I moved into a focused reading of Psalms 16, contemplating David’s interaction with God. As I did these things, a metaphor came to me.
My body is the tabernacle of God. Mentally, I go throughout the tabernacle lighting the candles in each room. The light of love from the Father illuminates the main room. As I move from room to room, I light the candle that brightens its darkness. I light the candles of peace in each room. Forgiveness is the brightest light that brings the gentle presence of God with his awareness of my story. The candle of joy is lit and affirms the power of His indwelling presence that will never leave or forsake me. The rooms are filled with comfort as the light illuminates the deep grief and loss I have no words for …. Then there is the candle of hope, the certainty of a God who will always keep all of His promises.
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My temptation is to let all the noise of my heart, coming from the dark rooms, draw me into action, before I let the light in that guides me in this treacherous wonder-filled journey. I then awaken to the joy of the house I live in and continually listen to the counsel I receive.
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“God is light and in him is no darkness at all.”
I John 1:5
*Tabernacle=dwelling place
Fountain of Life
October 24, 2010
Living Free
October 1, 2010
the way to joy
December 11, 2009
A gentle hand touches me
A loving smile embraces
I respond with gratitude
Overwhelmed with joy
Each day is a mystery
Who can know what it will bring
I will begin with laughter
Peace comes in the pain
The journey is hard
Easy answers do not work
The trouble is real
My parents failed me
They did not love each other
Home, not a safe place
Their parents failed them also
The cycle must be broken
It’s time to stop the death run
I will start with me
Somebody needs to live it
To reveal the way to joy
Forgiveness stops the cycle
Love will overcome
I’ll be a victim no more
By decisions of others
Responsibility’s mine
Which way I will go
Live well
November 29, 2009
love always receives
November 21, 2009
Would you be willing?
November 4, 2009
abundant life
October 21, 2009
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What is it I need
To live each day with real joy?
Security: Yes
To know my life has real worth
And I’ve the power to choose
Let’s not forget the basics
Good food and relationships
Love and care demonstrated
Where laughter abounds
This goal can be reached
It will take your best thinking
A desire to live
When our time begins
We’re born having received love
Nestled in our mother’s womb
Safe, secure and loved
We live needing to be loved
We live needing to give love
© Terry S. Smith
written October 21, 2009
Life vision
October 3, 2009
the high road
October 1, 2009
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I’ll take the “high road”
It is the road to give peace
To those that I fail
And to the ones who hurt me
I’ll never give up
I will always be searching
For new ways to love
I call it life long learning
My mistakes are my teachers
And there are many
But I’m bigger than my faults
And so are those around me
When I can forgive myself
I forgive others
© Terry S. Smith
written October 1, 2009
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My Father’s Deep Love
June 21, 2009
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It is Father’s day
I know my Father’s deep love
He gave all he had
I want to know the meaning
That he had when he began
What did he want life to be
For you and for me
He began with a vision
I will search this believing
What he had in mind was good
And I can find it
I know the place to begin
I believe I am worth it
I must care enough for me
Look for a higher love
I found in me a darkness
That frankly has frightened me
I know I am capable
Of giving great pain
I have found I need help
From something larger than me
I know I am powerless
To overcome me
I began at the bottom
To discover I need help
To love myself and others
Mercy I received
I know that you forgive me
Because that is who you are
You are the one thing in my life
That will never shift
I praise you that I can read
I praise you that I can breath
I praise you that I can see
And hear your kind call
My mind is quickened
My heart turns to see clearly
My imagination smiles
I’m open to love
Love is running to meet me
I surrender my being
I am in awe at what I see
When I practice gratitude
All day long I am aware
Of what’s really true
I pause to listen
In the early morning time
With expectation
I begin with taking in
Thoughts from the one who made me
Tasting the joy of great love
June 21, 2009
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Love searching for you
June 3, 2009
healing
May 25, 2009
The breaking of promises
How do you choose your close friends
I concentrate on healing
The best person in my life