the unseen
May 1, 2010
your words
January 12, 2010
look deeply
August 29, 2009
searching for your heart
August 26, 2009
find rest
July 10, 2009
I am free to be myself
In the presence of a friend
There is no need to perform
It’s there I find rest
I’ve been trained to think
To watch closely for my friends
Who show up on time
Intimate friendship
Is where I have discovered
How to listen well
I had to face the darkness
Of my own self-centered life
See the darkness of others
Before I could see
There are very painful truths
Places we seek to avoid
They’re plenty of distractions
That will block the light
When I’m with a friend
Who knows the truth about me
I find I can rest
That’s what God is like to me
It is based on truthful facts
A friendship over the years
That’s bigger than death
written July 10, 2009
wellspring of hope
July 2, 2009
I find the hard work
My loving is not enough
When those I love are hurting
every morning
July 1, 2009
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Every morning I arise
And confront the dark places
When I focus they arrive
Challenging the Peace
I’ve found that these feelings
I awake with each morning
Were falsely handed to me
From generations
Anxiety leads the way
Based on the fears that I have
My desperation hidden
In a secret place
These feelings are masked well here
Behind my pride, lust and greed
I know these are all true
About me and maybe you
I have learned this truth
Train to daily rest
Under stress my feelings rule
I know what they are
Naming my fears has helped me
Writing them down is better
Being honest with myself
I am powerless
When I was age twelve
I had figured out my world
How to survive and succeed
It worked for a while
Be a “good boy” all around
“Perform to please the others”
“Be strong and show no weakness”
Then things will go well
These are the lies I believed
My feelings are based on these
The voices that are in me
Are rooted in these
They will never go away
This one thing I have learned well
They’ve created a false self
That hurts me and you
So I meet them each morning
Allow their voices to speak
I am kind and forgiving
Then put them to sleep
A twelve year old will not rule
Who I will be in this day
When the stress arrives
The voice of love will speak
written June 30, 2009
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to search and to find
June 28, 2009
healing
May 25, 2009
The breaking of promises
How do you choose your close friends
I concentrate on healing
The best person in my life
