Never give up
May 23, 2009
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There are living lies
They speak for generations
The soul’s deep darkness
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My grandfather’s decisions
He died before I was born
Were handed to my mother
They impacted her life
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His choices brought death
He set a path of darkness
Of emptiness guilt and shame
My mother followed
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Can children break the cycle
The empty way handed them
I discovered the answer
Absolutely “Yes”
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Determination
To not repeat the same way
Must be decided
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Then the search begins
Our questions must be honored
And never give up
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I have learned to live daily
Respecting self and others
Considering the unseen
Life larger than me
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Processing my life
Searching for what makes good sense
Looking for love is in me
Thirsty needing drink
I found that love seeking me
I was surprised by the joy
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I’m talking forty-four years
Forty years of marriage
Four daughters nine grandchildren
Life larger than pain
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Injustice must be dealt with
Lies must be exposed to light
Pride and lust be confronted
Greed under control
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Some are cynical
Blame is the name of the game
There’s another way to go
I know it found me
Through a passion for living
And loving friends to join me
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I have betrayed others
I have also been betrayed
This is true of all of us
I’ll lay down the stone
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My heart judges me
I don’t need you to do that
I need forgiveness
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Your Story Matters 
Terry,
Always with more powerful words. I love this site, I love being able to reflect on what life God has given me, and that he has blessed me enough to help me define the difference in life and death. Living in death is a pattern handed down from parent to child, but living in life-that’s where a parent truly gives a gift, that’s where we see such amazing joy and beauty. Thank God for that Terry and thank you for your thoughts.
Joshua
This one is my favorite I have read thus far from all I’ve read. Love you papa
Thanks Terry
Terry, another hard hitting, deeply true expression of your life, history, God’s love. Would that I could more fully embrace the truths you model! Thanks for sharing. I love this site. Your appreciative brother, Rusty
Terry, as a long-time friend who knows your story, I want you to know what an inspiration you’ve been to me. It would have been so easy for you to have followed the pattern you’d seen, to have given in to the hurt in your life, to have lived in bitterness and resentment…but you haven’t. God bless you and Charlotte! Love you!