I am not afraid
July 8, 2009
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Written while in the Emergency Room.
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Death may come today
It’s real and I can touch it
I am not afraid
My blood pressure was too high
They said it was dangerous
These kinds of things will kill you
I’m being tested
It is just a reminder
This body is wearing out
Death is one thing that happens
To male and female
I like who I am
That has not always been so
I’ve learned to forgive
It’s not easy to forgive
Yourself and all the others
Changing points of reference
Has opened my eyes
l thought I that I knew
Then I knew I did not know
I knew I was lost
Then someone found me searching
Eager to teach me real love
There is rest in real silence
I found it in the hallway
Waiting in the hospital
Listening to the sounds
Doctors, nurses giving tests
Explaining to me the risks
If I die I know the reason
Why I am not here
They do it with smiles
Taking the right precautions
Being kind and thoughtful
They are the real thing
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My eyes are being opened
Finding love pursuing me
It is a constant living truth
I cannot deny
July 6-7, 2009
Your Story Matters 
Terry, we pray the tests will show what needs to be done to control your health problems! God has given doctors many skills, and we are thankful!
I am so thankful you’re going to be fine, don’t scare us like that anymore, I’m old! 🙂 love you and hope to see you all soon.
Terry,
I could not tell for sure – but I think you are ok and home from the hospital. I am so glad. Please take care of yourself for your family and those of us that benefit from your presence from afar. I very much have been benefiting from your poetry.
Sometimes I get discouraged about having MS and now a stomach disorder the has reduced me to a primarily liquid diet. Mostly I am grateful for the health I have and I tarry on cheerfully.
Thank you, Vicky. I just need to take some blood pressure medicine which I got today. I am taking a day of rest. It is good to reconnect, Vicky. You are beloved by our Father and I pray your awareness of his constant healing presence will keep growing stronger in you. His presence gives us reason for cheer.
Uncle, we need you to guide us get closer to Him…Your poems are so thirst giving. Please take care of your health….
I can relate to this on many levels…not as someone facing serious illness or injury but as someone who has watched a sick, dying woman come to terms with every word in every stanza you’ve written. It really touches me and brings me back to that time when I watched helplessly as doctors and nurses tried to help my family member the best they could.
And of course, the coming to terms with oneself is disconcerting to those of us who haven’t come to terms with ourselves.
Oh, and I like the precision of the poem, short stanza, every word is needed. No extras. Love it.