Awake Expecting

January 8, 2015

*

Awake expecting
To hear things you need to hear
From your Creator
Speak to my heart, soul and mind
Let love dominate my life

*

Human beings live
As reflections of your heart
We look just like you
No wonder you love us so much
Even though we have failed you

*

You bestow honor
And glory on all of us
Made in your image
At conception it’s given
Love never stops pursuing

*

My guilt is heavy
A burden too much to bear
Failure consumes me
Wounds fester and bring sickness
To my soul, body and mind

*

I sit in mourning
Feeble and utterly crushed
This searing pain comes
I groan with anguish of heart
My longings lay before you

*

My sighing is not hidden
“My heart pounds, my strength fails me”
The light has gone from my eyes
No friends are in sight

*

Neighbors stay away
Traps are set to destroy me
Deception is all around
I’m blind to your light

*

I’m like a deaf man
Whose mouth offers no reply
With no voice to speak

*

The reason I love
God found me in this condition
Lifted me out of the hell
Came looking for me
He found me in the darkness
Gently led me to the light

*

God is pursuing you now
Be still, focus and listen
Choose the voice you trust
One tested in history
Gave his life that we might live

*

I confess my wrongs
My iniquity is great
I am troubled by my sin
Hated without cause
Slandered when I seek the good
O Lord, do not forsake me

*

Lord, you are not far
In my darkest hour you came
Opened my eyes to see love
Touched my very soul
Gave me a language to hear
Your Spirit to know the joy

*

These promises were fulfilled
Stated in Psalm sixty-eight
We would all do well to look
And believe His word

*

Our God is a God who saves
Who daily bears our burdens
From him we escape from death
My heart fills with praise

*

I will never forget where I came from and the darkness I lived and grew up in this world. Hope against hope was the surprise that is not only for me but is for everyone. These reflections came in response to Psalm 8, 38, 68, 98 and 128.

Advertisements

You Are His Delight

January 7, 2015

*

God searches the minds and hearts
Brings an end to violence
He makes the righteous secure
With forgiving love

*

Trust in the Lord and do good
Delight yourself in the Lord
The desires of your heart come
As surely as breath

*

Commit your way to the Lord
Trust in him and he will do this
His life will shine like the dawn
Break forth in your soul

*

Be still before God
Wait patiently for guidance
Stop all the fretting
It leads only to evil
History tells us this truth

*

Anger will kill you
The toxic part can destroy
Learn to channel it
By loving your enemy
The first place to start is you

*

The meek inherit the land
Flourish in relationship
Look to the best interest
Of those closest to you

*

The result will be peace
That passes understanding
So it is time to grow up
Be responsible
Stop blaming self and others
You hold the key to find life

*

God will hold you up
I know this is true for sure
I have tasted this
By practicing His Presence
Walking in the light of love

*

God delights in you
When you believe, wisdom comes
There is a future for you
His kindness and peace
Comes when you trust His love
Surrender all of the lies

*

These reflections from Psalm 37 come from choosing how I will process this life. There are many views of life one can take. I chose to trust the God David spoke of in the Psalms. As a result I discovered an unshakable life filled with hope in the midst of the worst possible circumstances. Psalms has been like a mother to me over the last fifty years. The promises in this book I have found to be true, practical and life giving beyond words.

*

My journey is told in the book “Delta Blues From Darkness to Light.” http://www.coachinglifematters.com/delta-blues.html

Choices

January 6, 2015

 *

We all make choices
Know we will fill up our time
This takes good thinking

*

I love it I have the freedom to choose who will influence my mind the most.

*

Love Pours Down Like Rain

January 5, 2015

*

I wait in expectation
Morning by morning I seek
To listen to your kind voice
To walk in the light

*

Those who tell lies crush others
Homes are destroyed, children lose
The safety and love God gave
With two loving souls

*

No word can we trust
Hearts are full of destruction
Only action speaks

*

I found a place of refuge
Place I can be glad again
God can restore the real joy
Spread his protection

*

Those who love your name
Will find a place to rejoice
When we seek a pure heart
Our eyes are opened
Love pours down like the rain
We experience God’s love

*

Forgiveness from God
Is the greatest gift of all
Then we can forgive
The one we have hurt the most
The offense against our souls

*

We wounded ourselves
Lied to ourselves and others
Miracles of forgiveness
Comes to those who will repent
Accept God’s love and give it

*

God will run to receive you
Others will be unable
Celebrate this gift and give
Others time to heal

*

Reflections from Psalm 5 with awareness of the Father-son relationship in Luke 15.
Your Story Matters http://www.yourstorymatters2him.com

Early Morning Times

January 4, 2015

*

My best questions come
In the early morning times
In quiet moments
I’m confronted with my life
My fears and anxieties

*

I’m frightened sometimes by dreams
By realities of life
For others and for myself
My questions are hard

*

What do I believe
I struggle with unbelief
About the world and the pain
How do I view me
And the big question is God
And the meaning of friendship

*

I take the time to be still
To listen and contemplate
The puzzle of this journey
That involves my life

*

In my early life
I learned to detach myself
To not feel the pain
My imagination flew
To a place where I felt safe

*

I could settle down
With memories that were good
Of people who cared
Grandmothers and the neighbors
There was a secret comfort

*

I found in the solitude
A forced abandonment pain
A feeling of helplessness
With no person there

*

Solitary confinement
On the raft of shifting seas
With sharks all around
I was searching for answers
To understand and survive

*

It was in this search
To find out who I can trust
I found a focus
Big enough to contain me
Give me perspective on my life

*

No easy answers
But confidence I could find
The hidden love presented
By One I could trust
Who never failed to give love
To broken and lost children

*

I am one of His
If I ask the question,”Why?”
I must ask then “Why not me?”
We all have a cross
His mysterious presence came
“Don’t be afraid, I’m with you”

*

Reflections after reading Psalm 4, 34 and 64. Proverbs 4:7. I had no mother or father to guide my thinking or big enough to listen to the pain. I had no words to communicate. There was only silence and a simple prayer taught me. “Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray thee, Lord, my soul to keep. If I should die before I wake, I pray thee, Lord, my soul to take.” There was a song I learned that I sang, “Jesus Loves Me” this I know. I chose as a child to hold onto this mysterious unseen love and to trust this unseen God. I grew up and learned his story and discovered there was One who was with me when I was unaware and the angels were attending. His love was there and looking back I can see. He brought me through it all with His angels attending. He will bring you through. In the midst of my unbelief I cry out confessing it and pray “Help my unbelief!

Move to the Light

January 3, 2015

*

It is not easy
To be a human being
With all the trouble
With all the failure we share
We inflict on each other

*

Children suffer most
What they receive they will give
What they hear they speak
These cycles can be broken
A gift from the Son of man

*

Forgiveness – the miracle
It breaks the cycle of death
Opens the window to joy
Freedom to be you

*

When there are hard times
I’ll stop and evaluate
And move to the light

*

No darkness exists
When the light of life is there
The Son of man came
To give life abundantly
He did it being human

*

The movie “Unbroken” reveals the inhumanity to man. It illuminates the power of forgiveness in the midst of man’s inhumanity to man. Louis Zamperini’s overcoming reveals the greatness in a person who decides to never give up. He discovers the freedom to be Louis Zamperini. The book “Unbroken” reveals the rest of the story of how the move to total inner freedom came from forgiveness – the greatest miracle of his life.   I John in the New Testament tells how to “Move to the Light.”

Best Friend Conversations

January 2, 2015

*

Good conversation
Is a gift I want to have
With those I love most
I will include the stranger
And, also, my enemy

*

Who will be my friend
I will be looking today
Ready to respond
Open to this adventure
Love with no expectations

*

This I know is the hardest
For we wrong one another
Get offended easily
I know where to start

*

I will start with me
The one I sleep with each night
This is the hardest
The one I offend a lot
I’m the one I hurt the most

*

I found the secret
A way to forgive myself
To have a conversation
That’s gentle and kind
A way to love even me
In the darkness of my soul

*

Ready for the ride
Mutual conversation
Is what I’m committed to
It’s the missing part
So I will not medicate
Keep doing the counterfeit

*

I will like sleeping with myself
I have no choice about that
I will befriend my own soul
I’ll live in that joy

*

I’ll take away the judgment
With real authenticity
I’ll train to forgive myself
And the one near me

*

It is possible to live this. It is possible to overcome the darkness of the wounded soul and discover the joy. The impossible is possible when the deep soul decision is made to live and not die. Deciding to fight for my life is the most important decision I have made. I had to begin by caring about me. At that point I began to pay attention to my questions. Taking that responsibility has led me to discovering how to live in joy over the past fifty-three years. The pain, the reality of my own failure toward others and their failure to me is the most difficult road to navigate.

The best book I recommend to kick start this conversation was written by Jim Woodroof “Sayings that Saved My Sanity.” Write me and I will tell you how to get it. May all the best conversations take place for you in 2015. Your Story Matters http://www.yourstorymatters2him.com

Living In The Light

January 1, 2015

*

Two important things
Knowledge and understanding
Will equal wisdom
Knowledge applied at right times
Will give power and freedom

*

Waking up each day
Knowing a certain future
Anticipating real joy
Is a way to live
That is possible for all
Can be a daily practice

*

Circumstances cannot rob
Take away this joy in me
It’s based on knowledge and wisdom
I”ll live in the light

*

The world can hurt you
Sometimes it certainly will
I have found I have a choice
How I will respond
The power is in knowing this
Love is larger than all things

*

Pride is within me
Along with lust and the greed
Basic things to all of us
There is an answer
To keep these from destroying
My soul, body and my mind

*

The light in my soul
Will heal the wounded places
Received with great joy

*

Happy New Year to those who choose to share this joy. I have chosen the word “light” to be my focus word this year. No resolutions just one word. This word brings clarity and understanding as I look into the heart of God through the light of His Son. May this be the best year of your life. One day at a time, walking after love, as revealed in the daily practice of interacting with the passion and compassionate heart of God, that is light to me. If you have chosen a word for the New Year, would you share that word with me in your reply? Thank you!